My braces journey

HI!!! For this entry, I'm gonna write about my braces journey. I buat dekat PPUM. Firstly, aku buat checkup tahun 2019, July then masuk waiting list. Tunggu punya tunggu, finally tahun 2020 kalau tak silap dalam bulan 12 kena panggil untuk pasang braces. Like FINALLYYYY, I can't wait to wear it hihi. 

Okay untuk first appointment, dr ambik acuan gigi. Then dr bagi tarikh untuk ambil xray. Anggaran untuk ambik xray dalam sebulan jugak selepas first appointment. Lepas xray pulak tunggu sebulan lebih untuk 2nd appointment. Untuk appointment kali kedua, dr present kan my case dekat supervisor dia, dia explain apa masalah gigi I and such things lah about my case hahaha. Basically masalah gigi I, gigi bawah dia lebih kedepan daripada gigi atas. So my teeth ni class 3. Lagi satu rahang bawah I kedepan (??) dari atas mungkin sebab gene hahaha and dr kata case I ni susah and kalau nak bagi perfect kena buat surgery. Tapi kalau tak buat surgery masih boleh straightkan and gigi atas kedepan sikittt daripada yang bawah. I tak kisah just nak gigi straight tu je hahahahah. Tapi taktau la dr bagi option ataupun memang tak perlu buat surgery :') Lupa nak tanya sbdsdbhsbj. 

Lepastu dr letak 2 getah (separator) dekat gigi atas belah kanan I. Bersyukur kena pasang 2 je, sebab ni pun dah sakit, ada orang sampai 8 weii. Tak sakit sangat tapi sakit la jugak kalau terkunyah guna bahagian ada getah tu haha. Pastu tak selesa rasa macam ada daging tersekat kat celah gigi hahahaha. So benda ni kena stay untuk satu minggu. Minggu depan kena datang balik untuk 3rd appointment. Dr kata nak bawak alat untuk luaskan rahang atas eee tacodd. I google la apa benda la dr nak pasang tu so mungkin like expander and I baca kena pakai sampai 6 months. Hahaha tunggu lagi, I dah tak sabar nak pakai tapi as long as 6 bulan tu masih dalam tahun ni I tak kisah skdjaslkdjs. Tapi tak tahu la kan dr nak pasang apa so kita tunggu next week :] 

SikJae enlistment

(wrote on 23rd may) Hi !!!!!! I'm gonna update about what happened today, as a Melody.

Hyunsik & Sungjae just enlisted today. I thought they wished for a quiet enlistment but it turned out that medias were there too, but not fans tho. So there are so many pics of 5TOB,,,,,,, it's like the first on-camera 5tob interaction after eunkwang's discharge (OH BTW he discharged on 7th April!!). Hyunsik also uploaded a pic of him with his army haircut! He has been quiet on Sns for a few days we were so worried tbh lol. Looking from the photos, Ilhoon looked kinda bald but not too sure tho, he was wearing a cap. We wanted hyunsik, sungjae and ilhoon to enlist together but no- we could only wish for it. It was kinda emotional when ilhoon was hugging sungjae,,, he looked so clingy.......... he loves his dongsaeng that much huh!!!! T_____T and the thought of they wouldn't be there to send ilhoon off when he enlists,,, it hurts so much </3 also he looked like he was crying after hyunsik and sungjae got in. It hurts to see him like that, he barely cries but when he does...... it hurts :(

   

Eunkwang then had a live on v app!! then eunkwang and peniel shared a 5TOB pic on their Instagram!

          

We've been asking for a 5TOB pic and we finally got it T_T 

Then, cube uploaded hyunsik's rendezvous live performance clip.............. I---- I'm not even over his dear love live performance but cube really had to hurt me like this :'( 

Today has been a roller coaster ride of emotions!!!! so much things happened and it was such a long day. Now we're waiting for Ilhoon to enlist and changsub and minhyuk to discharge from military! Kinda tired of sadness today lmao.... writing this entry for future purpose. I hope would still be here by then.

~ Cuti sem ~

Hello! Dah lama tak update blog, diary pun sama dah berapa bulan tak sentuh. Sebab waktu ODL haritu busy sangat. Bila dah cuti sem malas nak update jugak haha. Sekarang tinggal seminggu je nak start sem baru tapi baru rasa macam nak update.  

Sepanjang sem 2 kitorang ODL (online distance learning) kecuali waktu awal sem, so ada macam dalam sebulan jugak la kelas macam biasa. Ada PKP, selepas beberapa minggu PKP start baru ODL dijalankan. Sepanjang ODL seksa gila!!! Kelas sikit je tapi assignment banyak nak mampos. Hantar satu, ada lagi assignment lain datang walaupun assignment yang belum due date ada banyak lagi tak siap. Basically ODL ni nak hantar assignment on time semata mata, belajar apa pun tak tau lah. Apa yang paling susah bagi aku ODL ni, kalau group assignment, lagi lagi assignment kena edit video ni paling susah nak buat perbincangan. Susah sangat susah!!! Walaupun dah bahagi tugas, tapi rasa macam aku sorang yang paling banyak buat kerja sebab aku yang kena edit. Kelas online apatah lagi, pukul 8 pagi dah kena dengar lecture online, memang aku tidur lah HAHAHA. Tak tahu lah belajar apa,,, idk,, online classes are so ineffectice tbh. Sem 2 rasa lama gila, biasa ada 12 weeks je tapi rasa macam 20 weeks aksldjlkj. Tapi Alhamdulillah, aku dapat survive, bertahan sampai habis sem. Hasilnya, dapat lah pointer 3.55 termasuk dalam dean list. Alhamdulillah. 

Waktu cuti sem pulak aku tengok kdrama jelah hahahaha. Kdrama yang aku dah tengok sepanjang cuti ni: Unfamiliar family, It's ok to not be ok, Stove league, Was it love, Flower of evil, Do you like brahms (on-going), Go ahead (dropped), Record of youth (dropped). Tu je kot rasanya. Tapi paling best yang terjadi!!!! Lovelyz comeback!!!! I also bought their album T_T my first lovelyz album ever and i have no regrets at all <33 The reason why i wanted to buy them because i had some extra money. Lagi satu, lovelyz contract are going to end next year, so we don't know what will happen to them. So i didn't want to regret not having any lovelyz ot8 album. So tahun ni beli 2 album, rendez-vous dengan unforgettable (B version) hehe. 

Btw, cuti ni aku ada kerja jugak dekat klinik dayah kerja tu. Kerja locum jee. Mula mula tu susah jugak la, rasa humiliating jugak lah sebab rasa pressured. My anxiety kicked me in the ass, my heart kept beating so fast and my palms were always sweating. Dalam 7 hari jugak la kerja kat situ.. hari 6-7 camtu dah tak nervous sangat pastu confident sikit lol. Literally took me so long to overcome my anxiety T_T but im proud of myself tho, i did well despite being scared and nervous *pats myself* <33 Idk, i'm just scared of meeting people.. idk if it's social anxiety or sumn. Satu hari dapat Rm60, so total dapat rm420. Wow banyak jugak kan. Tapi dah guna banyak, beli album lovelyz, beli tudung dua helai, pastu latest ni beli wireless earpods Rm149 HAHAHAHAH. Benda paling mahal yang aku pernah beli untuk tahun ni hihihih. Tapi tak sampai lagi, harap harap berbaloi lah. 

Sepatutnya semalam dah start daftar kolej. Tapi baru baru ni kes covid makin naik pulak. Sekarang 3rd wave dekat malaysia. Ada student yang dah daftar hari sabtu, pastu tiba tiba KPT suruh semua balik rumah. Ko bayangkan datang dari jauh, pastu kena halau????? kesian,, Everything was a mess doh.. patutunya dari awal tetapkan je ODL sampai habis 2020. Tengok, apa dah jadi. Howeverrrr, dekat twitter ramai yang nak tolong student yang terkandas dekat uni, or dekat mana mana yang takde duit nak balik. Terharu tengok ramai yang murah hati nak tolong. Hashtag rakyat jaga rakyat!  Tapi aku rasa macam clown jugak lah dah siap beli barang kolej, siap beli water heater lagi... hahaha...... semangat sis......

Melody

For this post I'm just gonna randomly write about my thoughts on Btob or anything about them. So they debuted on 21st March 2012 with their title song 'Insane'. I was 12 and already listen to kpop so yeah, I know that song. On September, they released 'Wow'. That song was a huge BOP!! I don't know why kpop nowadays don't produce songs like that anymore. (or it's just me who doesnt listen to bgs lol). As years past, I only some of their songs like 2nd confession, i'll be your man, and missing you. But the only song that I always listen to was missing you because that song radiates big sendu energy lmao I used to cry listening to that song during my broken days lol.

I used to only know about Sungjae,,, his acting in school 2015 was 10/10!!!!!!!!! I had a huge crush on Gong Tae Kwang T___T But that's that. I never felt like discovering his group ahahah.  Sooo last week, I didn't know how I ended up watching btob clips. Lmao at first I just thought they were funny and watch lots of their videos. One week passed and I'm still backtracking their shows HAHHAHA the pain of  being7 years late ;; I don't mind though, I'm literally out of kdramas to watch so I'm just gonna watch any btob clips. I swear they're bunch of comedians especially EK, CS, SJ. But others pun boleh tahan. My bias is Ilhoon. It's always been sungjae but Ilhoon just got my attention more, he's so damn attractive doe :') But overall I can't rank them. I love them equally!!

2 weeks of stanning them, I get to know something new about them every day. They have some good ballads and some of my favs are Climax/ Jebal and Someday. I just knew that climax was composed by minhyuk!!! That song is so good ahhh minhyuk is so talented T_____T and most of their title tracks were composed by ilhoon and hyunsik. Missing You was composed by hyunsik!! That song is a masterpiece I never knew it was composed by the member itself omg how are they so talented T_T Btob has the strongest vocal line ever!!  Sometimes I feel like sungjae is unreal,,, he's handsome,, he can sing,,, can act,,, he's funny,,, he's perfect im????????? The world is so unfair lmao.

I'm basically maknae line biased and i read somewhere that ilhoon and sungjae used to be awkward around missing you era(??) I kept looking for some clips to look at their awkwardness but I couldn't find any. Idk sometimes fans like to do their own assumption and I don't want to believe it. Idk why thinking about it breaks my heart????? They're literally good friends and Ilhoon loves sungjae so much okay!! They said sj has been ignoring ih but I don't think that's the case, btob members are like that. One makes joke and others respond awkwardly so yeah iljae were never awkward!!

Hyung line are in military and their recent beatcom have became a little bit quieter than before hahahaha. It's not that the other members are awkward but,,, you know how loud EK and CS can be. Anyways Eunkwang is discharging in 2 months yay!!  Only 2 weeks into stanning them but I already miss the hyung line lol. I hope they're doing well omg T__T few days ago hyunsik, ilhoon and peniel went to one of the cube staffs(?)'s wedding!! Idk where sungjae was though. And what made me happy was they posted their selfies on instagram

yes babies!! <3

Look at how cute ilhoon is!! <333 Btw, sungjae is releasing his part 3 of solo project (3x2=6) tomorrow omg so excited. There will be 2 songs featuring ilhoon & peniel!!! <33333 Finally an iljae song omg. Ilhoon has always wanted to write a song for sungjae and it's finally happening T_T You have no idea how much i love iljae right now lol. 

Btob is really that group who makes me laugh out loud but then becomes an emotional mess when I listen to their songs LOL. Everything about them makes me <33333 Idk why I'm so late lol i hate myself. Idk what to write anymore but i love them so much. Can't wait for 6 pm tomorrow. I'll try to keep writing about them here.

Sarah is a fangirl

Hello. This is kinda rare that I'm writing another post in less than a week. I feel like writing a journal as a fangirl LOL. I've just thought about this since I'm too lazy to create a twitter fan account. And it's too lagha for me, been there when I was around 14-16 haha. I'm not really a kpop "stan" because I only listen to those groups that I like. And those groups are Lovelyz, Iz*one and Btob. Hehehe. And I've only start stanning btob since last week hahaha I'm like 7 years late, I know lol. It seems like I've finally wake up after sleeping on them since 2012. 

Idk these past few days I just feel like fangirling. Idk until when this will last but I'm enjoying it, it makes me happy. Anyways, Izone is finally coming back on 17th February. They've been hiatus for a long time. Sad. But I'm still thankful that they didn't disband,,, but they're disbanding anyway. But at least not before the actual date of their disbandment. Idk how to make the right sentence but, I understand what I'm trying to talk about lol. Idc no one's gonna read anyway.

And as for Lovelyz, I've been stanning them since 2014!! It's been 5 years doe. Group paling lama aku minat. I was such a huge HUGE fan of them around 2015-2016 (especially during ah choo & for you era) then I slowed down during spm sskdskd. My lovelyz acc reached 1k follower but it's now 900+ something LOL it's because I abandoned that acc for years so i don't really care tbh. But it's sad that I haven't talked to my mutuals for ages, but it seems like they rarely tweet just like me hahaha. Still waiting for Lovelyz's comeback though. 

UiTM life ✿

Assalamualaikum and Hi! It has been 3-4 weeks since semester break started. And I suddenly just thought of writing a new entry because I am that boredddd lol I'm running out of shows to watch, even though I have yet to watch dozens of Btob's Beatcom (yeah I'm into btob these days). My last entry was about my matrics life which I didn't even finish writing it and published it just like that haha. 

So now I'm just gonna randomly write or sum up how my life as a degree student at UiTM Puncak Perdana went so far (for the first sem ofc). 

Gonna start with introducing my housemates! 

From left: piqa, ecah, hajar, ayu, jenny, deeja, iffah, sarah

Kolej kat sini style dia macam rumah. Ada 3 bilik. 1 bilik ada dua katil double decker and dua bilik lagi satu katil double decker. Ramai kan duduk serumah 8 orang!! I didn't really like it tbh I'm an introvert so it was hard for me to adapt to these people. However, I did. Housemates aku kelakar ok setiap hari menceriakan hari hariku yang suram gituw cewah. 

Ok so since kitorang semua sama fakulti, untuk sem1 untuk semua course or program semua sama kelas. Boleh daftar kelas sendiri. We choose. Ada housemate yang nak sekali kelas tapi aku elak, aku taknak. I need my own space or idk how to say it but I just don't want. Bayangkan dalam kelas hadap muka sama, rumah muka sama, pastu buat assignment sama sama kat rumah ooo please aku tak suka hahaha. I want to be independent (tiber) so aku daftar la kelas lain dengan mereka hikhik. 

Setiap subject mesti jumpa muka lain lain. So dekat kelas aku takde kawan pun, classmate lain pulak diorang sesama housemate sksksksk. Kawan setakat untuk group assignment gitu ja aku memang maleh nak berkawan dengan orang, kawan dengan housemate je pun dah cukup. Cakap pasal classmateeee, haaaa, groupmate assignment aku ada yang elok ada yang macam kdjfkasdfk rasa nak carut.

Yang elok tu Alhamdulillah, bagi tugas masing2, buat, on time, walaupun buat last minit, takpe, aku pun sama hahaha. Tapi ada pulak group untuk satu subject tu eeee!!! Baru dapat rasa groupmate tahpape sebab kat matriks dulu elok jeee semua. Tapi tak boleh compare la sebab ala kitorang classmate macam family, senang nak cooperate. Masuk uni kita tak kenal masing2, kenal setakat untuk kerja group dah la kan. 

Pastu aku rasa sem 1 ni tak produktif langsung. Sebab jadual tak pack langsung. Sehari 1-2 kelas je. Satu kelas 2 jam. Pastu balik makan, tidur, buat assignment. Study nya tak pun hahaha. Tengok tengok dah final exam huhu. Kalau kat matriks setiap hari kelas 8am sampai 4pm pergh pack betul rasa produktif roxx tidur petang lepas kelas tu nikmat gila. Tapi ni baru sem 1 ha senior kata memang camni, kita tengok next next sem pulak ahaks. 

Dan memandangkan puncak perdana ni betul dekat dengan rumah aku, (30 mins away) aku balik la setiap minggu. Boleh kira kot berapa kali aku tak balik waktu weekend. 2 kali je wei!!! HAHAHA. First time sebab aku join supro (sukan program) 2nd time sebab gap exam. Entahla tak boleh la tak balik sebab rumah dekat en takde program pape kat kolej macam pelik je duduk kat kolej. Balik rumah jimat sikit duit hehe. 

Ha pasal belajar pulak, aku rasa aku suka course aku ni (information system management). Setakat ni belajar pasal internet, computer, library skills, foundation of IM. Entah la mungkin sebab takde calculation kot and aku memang suka bab bab computer/ internet ni lol. Next sem belajar web designing aaa excited. Subjek yang aku tak suka ctu sebab belajar sejarah askdjksjf maleh aku. So untuk sem 1 ni memang menghafal je. Harap2 result tu elok la hahahaha entah la kalau tak elok tu memang aku patut m*ti je huhu ok gurau. 

Sooo to sum up about my first semester, everything was great. I survived!! Azam baru untuk next sem adalah untuk kurang2 kan lah balik rumah tu HAHAHA. Pastu be more confident masa presentation, pastu buat nota awal awal, pastu tolonggg la buat kawan, ko ni dasar pemalas. Pastuuuu, tu je kot. Ok bye! 

Matriculation Memories

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!!!!

Dah lama tak update sebab macam biasa la, semua benda update dalam diary hehe. Ok I have less than 20 days for entering uni. Aku nak manfaatkan saat-saat terakhir kat rumah dengan menceritakan tentang kehidupanku di KMP ╰(✧∇✧)╯

Ok baiklah firstly aku bersyukur aku dapat survive 10 bulan dekat matriks. I could say my matrics life was one of the happiest phase of my life. If I had a time machine I would go back to those matrics days, but without tutorials, lectures, assignments and exams HAHAHAH. 

24 November 2018, ada program Englishvaganza. Satu team kena ada berapa orang tah guwe dah tak ingat. Ada scrabble, found poetry, beat the tune, and UNGA.  Aku masuk scrabble jeeee mampu lol tu pun sebab nak markah koko. Dah masuk sem 2 baru terhegeh hegeh nak kumpul markah koko. Yang paling best beat the tune. Berapa banyak kali diorang tukar lagu pastu dengan teamwork teruknya (ceh macam tahu sangat apa yang berlaku) diorang banyak kali fikir nak tarik diri. Tapi last2 they made it jugak. Perform betul classmate aku ni ahaks. Pastu announcement pemenang,, kitorang dapat nombor 4/5 rasanya over 12 groups kot? Hebat siot. Unexpected betul, mesti aku dah sumbangkan banyak markah sebab main scrabble tu (perasan) 

A5P3 ヾ(｡･ω･)ｼ (Peah MIA, busy drummer) 

Esoknya pulak ada photo shoot session untuk setiap tutoran. Dah tetapkan beberapa konsep so kita pilih je. Kitorang buat konsep harry potter (la sangat) semua gambar tak cantik dohhhh hahahahah cedih.

Tutoran A5T3B <333

Praktikum A5P3 (ؑᵒᵕؑ̇ᵒ)◞✧ 

Done photo shoot. Sepanjang minggu tu serious busy gila dengan practice cheer-leading untuk KAGEM lagi. Cehhh cheer-leading wei bukan beshe beshe. Practice sampai hampir pukul 12 pulak tu pastu tak sempat dinner kadang2. Dapat la rasa lost weight kejap. Ni pun masuk sebab nak markah koko. Tak sangka aku masuk benda tu hahahahaha takpe la bukannya orang kenal aku pun.

Blok A3. Can't remember our tagline lol

                             

A3's cheer leaders gitewww

Our block didn't win but it's okay I still had fun, just to have experience gitu.

Seminggu lepas tu cuti tahun baru (?) kot selama seminggu. We were given an assignment for english, we had to do a volunteering activity. Soooo our group and another group decided to do it during the holidays which was at Zoo Negara. Procedure dia mula2 kena call nombor dekat website zoo tu pastu tetapkan date bila nak pergi, then pergi je time tu and sediakan duit RM40 tak silap aku. Jangan lambat ok sebab makcik jaga counter tu grumpy betul eyy menyampah aku. Kitorang lambat sikit tapi nasib baik tak kena halau lol.  Then masuk akan ada pekerja zoo bahagikan kumpulan untuk ke tempat2 yang disuruh. Mula2 kitorang kena pergi kat tempat haiwan mana tah lupa dooo hahahahah nanti aku baca report untuk assignment ni jela hahahaha. Basically volunteering ni cuma bersihkan tempat haiwan2 tu je, menyapu daun kering je. Tapi taktau la volunteers lain ada buat benda lain jugak kot. Paling extreme pun yang kitorang buat bagi sunbear makan roti. Tapi penat gila buat volunteering kat tengah panas pulak tuuuu. Forgot to mention that I lowkey had a crush on this guy yang sama group dengan aku. Dia student UniKL, diorang pun tengah buat volunteering kat situ. Masa tengah menyapu sama2 tu aku ingat nak approach dia dulu tapi dia yang approach dulu. Kot??? Aku tak ingat la haahaha tapi ada borak sikit2 yang dia dulu student politeknik and dari penang. Dia masuk UniKL sebab malas nak tunggu 2nd intake nak masuk degree. Time nak balik tu aku tak bye kat dia pun. I always think about him at the most random times, wishing that I would meet him again (gitewww) Kitorang volunteer setengah hari je, sampai pukul 12 je. Dah selesai, kitorang pusing zoo tengok haiwan. Never actually dreamt of going to zoo with my friends, it just happens hahaha. Actually bayar untuk volunteering lagi berbaloi daripada bayar as pengunjung. Lagi murah. Highlight of the day was tengok panda!! 

Tido jeee. What a mood. Dah pusing seluruh zoo then kitorang pergi mall mana tah tak ingat pastu makan boat noodle. Pastu balikkk. Penat gila but it was fun though. 

Everything that I write here are based on my ig posts, maybe ada tertinggal beberapa event huhu. 

February 17, ada Feskem. Sepanjang minggu feskem tu ada program pencetus ummah, sepak raga, pertandingan khat, explorace & super spontan islamik. Aku join explorace with my another 5 classmates. And guess what???!!! Nama team kitorang 'Rempit-rempit sejati" HAHAHAHAH idea sape la ni ennn mesti la bukan aku. Pastu plan pakai tshirt kolej yang warna kuning tu dengan warna pink hshsshshs what a combination. Penat weh main explorace kena sentiasa berlari. Team kitorang padu la jugak tapi dapat saguhati je HAHAHAH. Time ustaz Asri nak umumkan group dapat saguhati tu dia cakap "haaa group ni memang tak patut menang" and dia announce la nama group kitorang tu, kitorang pun semua macam taknak pergi depan sebab malu then ada la sorang wakil sanggup ambik ke depan walaupun malu HAHAHAHAH. ustaz terkejut and kata "laaa group perempuan ke.. haa takpe ni rempit ke syurga ni" HAHAHAHAJSDHKAJHSKJHF lawak do. Ok pastu time nak tangkap gambar dengan peserta2 lain ada pulakkk laki yang tegur then cakap "malam cuti buat apa? rempit onz" something like dat and ada yang "vroom vroom" kat kitorang asskdksdj what the heck sorry sikit kitorang weng weng okay HAHAHAHA. Tapi serious penat main explorace ahahah. 

Seminggu lepas tu ada minggu kebudayaan kot tak silap. Masuk explorace jugak tapi team tak paduuuu. Tak dapat nombor langsung ahaks. Sama je penat adei dua minggu berturut turut masuk game yang sama. The next week pulak masuk orienteering ahahahaha macam explorace sikit. Kurus wei aku sepanjang 3 minggu tu. Aktif teroks lol.

     March 3, ada color run. Basically aktiviti tu macam tengok unity antara kolej..... and diberi packets of serbuk warna pastu baling2. Aku tak nampak motif benda ni,,, bagi aku tak berapa best haha. Aku takde gambar proper pulak. 

Bulan march tu musim sakura dah bermula. Tapi kejap jee dalam seminggu camtu. Memang cantik tangkap gambar tapi aku takde gambar cantik sangat macam orang lain haha tiber. Sir Amri cakap tu simbolik perpisahan..... nak tamat matriks dah :( dia cakap "nanti bunga dah hilang dengan hampa2 sekali hilang" sedih wei. 

rempit sejati 5/5

a5p3 girls

Cantik kannn. /plays ioi's when the cherry blossoms fade/

Madam Ainis bagi final task untuk english which was..... kitorang kena buat music video based on motivational songs!! Soooo group aku dengan cheng & mamu. Aku pilih la lagu owl city- to the sky. Madam bagi tempoh dua minggu untuk siapkan mv. So minggu pertama tu rilek2 dulu fikir story line,, pilih lagu semua tu. Minggu kedua baru start shooting, biasa ah suka buat kerja last minit. Sp