SikJae enlistment

(wrote on 23rd may) Hi !!!!!! I'm gonna update about what happened today, as a Melody.

Hyunsik & Sungjae just enlisted today. I thought they wished for a quiet enlistment but it turned out that medias were there too, but not fans tho. So there are so many pics of 5TOB,,,,,,, it's like the first on-camera 5tob interaction after eunkwang's discharge (OH BTW he discharged on 7th April!!). Hyunsik also uploaded a pic of him with his army haircut! He has been quiet on Sns for a few days we were so worried tbh lol. Looking from the photos, Ilhoon looked kinda bald but not too sure tho, he was wearing a cap. We wanted hyunsik, sungjae and ilhoon to enlist together but no- we could only wish for it. It was kinda emotional when ilhoon was hugging sungjae,,, he looked so clingy.......... he loves his dongsaeng that much huh!!!! T_____T and the thought of they wouldn't be there to send ilhoon off when he enlists,,, it hurts so much </3 also he looked like he was crying after hyunsik and sungjae got in. It hurts to see him like that, he barely cries but when he does...... it hurts :(

   

Eunkwang then had a live on v app!! then eunkwang and peniel shared a 5TOB pic on their Instagram!

          

We've been asking for a 5TOB pic and we finally got it T_T 

Then, cube uploaded hyunsik's rendezvous live performance clip.............. I---- I'm not even over his dear love live performance but cube really had to hurt me like this :'( 

Today has been a roller coaster ride of emotions!!!! so much things happened and it was such a long day. Now we're waiting for Ilhoon to enlist and changsub and minhyuk to discharge from military! Kinda tired of sadness today lmao.... writing this entry for future purpose. I hope would still be here by then.

~ Cuti sem ~

Hello! Dah lama tak update blog, diary pun sama dah berapa bulan tak sentuh. Sebab waktu ODL haritu busy sangat. Bila dah cuti sem malas nak update jugak haha. Sekarang tinggal seminggu je nak start sem baru tapi baru rasa macam nak update.  

Sepanjang sem 2 kitorang ODL (online distance learning) kecuali waktu awal sem, so ada macam dalam sebulan jugak la kelas macam biasa. Ada PKP, selepas beberapa minggu PKP start baru ODL dijalankan. Sepanjang ODL seksa gila!!! Kelas sikit je tapi assignment banyak nak mampos. Hantar satu, ada lagi assignment lain datang walaupun assignment yang belum due date ada banyak lagi tak siap. Basically ODL ni nak hantar assignment on time semata mata, belajar apa pun tak tau lah. Apa yang paling susah bagi aku ODL ni, kalau group assignment, lagi lagi assignment kena edit video ni paling susah nak buat perbincangan. Susah sangat susah!!! Walaupun dah bahagi tugas, tapi rasa macam aku sorang yang paling banyak buat kerja sebab aku yang kena edit. Kelas online apatah lagi, pukul 8 pagi dah kena dengar lecture online, memang aku tidur lah HAHAHA. Tak tahu lah belajar apa,,, idk,, online classes are so ineffectice tbh. Sem 2 rasa lama gila, biasa ada 12 weeks je tapi rasa macam 20 weeks aksldjlkj. Tapi Alhamdulillah, aku dapat survive, bertahan sampai habis sem. Hasilnya, dapat lah pointer 3.55 termasuk dalam dean list. Alhamdulillah. 

Waktu cuti sem pulak aku tengok kdrama jelah hahahaha. Kdrama yang aku dah tengok sepanjang cuti ni: Unfamiliar family, It's ok to not be ok, Stove league, Was it love, Flower of evil, Do you like brahms (on-going), Go ahead (dropped), Record of youth (dropped). Tu je kot rasanya. Tapi paling best yang terjadi!!!! Lovelyz comeback!!!! I also bought their album T_T my first lovelyz album ever and i have no regrets at all <33 The reason why i wanted to buy them because i had some extra money. Lagi satu, lovelyz contract are going to end next year, so we don't know what will happen to them. So i didn't want to regret not having any lovelyz ot8 album. So tahun ni beli 2 album, rendez-vous dengan unforgettable (B version) hehe. 

Btw, cuti ni aku ada kerja jugak dekat klinik dayah kerja tu. Kerja locum jee. Mula mula tu susah jugak la, rasa humiliating jugak lah sebab rasa pressured. My anxiety kicked me in the ass, my heart kept beating so fast and my palms were always sweating. Dalam 7 hari jugak la kerja kat situ.. hari 6-7 camtu dah tak nervous sangat pastu confident sikit lol. Literally took me so long to overcome my anxiety T_T but im proud of myself tho, i did well despite being scared and nervous *pats myself* <33 Idk, i'm just scared of meeting people.. idk if it's social anxiety or sumn. Satu hari dapat Rm60, so total dapat rm420. Wow banyak jugak kan. Tapi dah guna banyak, beli album lovelyz, beli tudung dua helai, pastu latest ni beli wireless earpods Rm149 HAHAHAHAH. Benda paling mahal yang aku pernah beli untuk tahun ni hihihih. Tapi tak sampai lagi, harap harap berbaloi lah. 

Sepatutnya semalam dah start daftar kolej. Tapi baru baru ni kes covid makin naik pulak. Sekarang 3rd wave dekat malaysia. Ada student yang dah daftar hari sabtu, pastu tiba tiba KPT suruh semua balik rumah. Ko bayangkan datang dari jauh, pastu kena halau????? kesian,, Everything was a mess doh.. patutunya dari awal tetapkan je ODL sampai habis 2020. Tengok, apa dah jadi. Howeverrrr, dekat twitter ramai yang nak tolong student yang terkandas dekat uni, or dekat mana mana yang takde duit nak balik. Terharu tengok ramai yang murah hati nak tolong. Hashtag rakyat jaga rakyat!  Tapi aku rasa macam clown jugak lah dah siap beli barang kolej, siap beli water heater lagi... hahaha...... semangat sis......

Melody

For this post I'm just gonna randomly write about my thoughts on Btob or anything about them. So they debuted on 21st March 2012 with their title song 'Insane'. I was 12 and already listen to kpop so yeah, I know that song. On September, they released 'Wow'. That song was a huge BOP!! I don't know why kpop nowadays don't produce songs like that anymore. (or it's just me who doesnt listen to bgs lol). As years past, I only some of their songs like 2nd confession, i'll be your man, and missing you. But the only song that I always listen to was missing you because that song radiates big sendu energy lmao I used to cry listening to that song during my broken days lol.

I used to only know about Sungjae,,, his acting in school 2015 was 10/10!!!!!!!!! I had a huge crush on Gong Tae Kwang T___T But that's that. I never felt like discovering his group ahahah.  Sooo last week, I didn't know how I ended up watching btob clips. Lmao at first I just thought they were funny and watch lots of their videos. One week passed and I'm still backtracking their shows HAHHAHA the pain of  being7 years late ;; I don't mind though, I'm literally out of kdramas to watch so I'm just gonna watch any btob clips. I swear they're bunch of comedians especially EK, CS, SJ. But others pun boleh tahan. My bias is Ilhoon. It's always been sungjae but Ilhoon just got my attention more, he's so damn attractive doe :') But overall I can't rank them. I love them equally!!

2 weeks of stanning them, I get to know something new about them every day. They have some good ballads and some of my favs are Climax/ Jebal and Someday. I just knew that climax was composed by minhyuk!!! That song is so good ahhh minhyuk is so talented T_____T and most of their title tracks were composed by ilhoon and hyunsik. Missing You was composed by hyunsik!! That song is a masterpiece I never knew it was composed by the member itself omg how are they so talented T_T Btob has the strongest vocal line ever!!  Sometimes I feel like sungjae is unreal,,, he's handsome,, he can sing,,, can act,,, he's funny,,, he's perfect im????????? The world is so unfair lmao.

I'm basically maknae line biased and i read somewhere that ilhoon and sungjae used to be awkward around missing you era(??) I kept looking for some clips to look at their awkwardness but I couldn't find any. Idk sometimes fans like to do their own assumption and I don't want to believe it. Idk why thinking about it breaks my heart????? They're literally good friends and Ilhoon loves sungjae so much okay!! They said sj has been ignoring ih but I don't think that's the case, btob members are like that. One makes joke and others respond awkwardly so yeah iljae were never awkward!!

Hyung line are in military and their recent beatcom have became a little bit quieter than before hahahaha. It's not that the other members are awkward but,,, you know how loud EK and CS can be. Anyways Eunkwang is discharging in 2 months yay!!  Only 2 weeks into stanning them but I already miss the hyung line lol. I hope they're doing well omg T__T few days ago hyunsik, ilhoon and peniel went to one of the cube staffs(?)'s wedding!! Idk where sungjae was though. And what made me happy was they posted their selfies on instagram

yes babies!! <3

Look at how cute ilhoon is!! <333 Btw, sungjae is releasing his part 3 of solo project (3x2=6) tomorrow omg so excited. There will be 2 songs featuring ilhoon & peniel!!! <33333 Finally an iljae song omg. Ilhoon has always wanted to write a song for sungjae and it's finally happening T_T You have no idea how much i love iljae right now lol. 

Btob is really that group who makes me laugh out loud but then becomes an emotional mess when I listen to their songs LOL. Everything about them makes me <33333 Idk why I'm so late lol i hate myself. Idk what to write anymore but i love them so much. Can't wait for 6 pm tomorrow. I'll try to keep writing about them here.

Sarah is a fangirl

Hello. This is kinda rare that I'm writing another post in less than a week. I feel like writing a journal as a fangirl LOL. I've just thought about this since I'm too lazy to create a twitter fan account. And it's too lagha for me, been there when I was around 14-16 haha. I'm not really a kpop "stan" because I only listen to those groups that I like. And those groups are Lovelyz, Iz*one and Btob. Hehehe. And I've only start stanning btob since last week hahaha I'm like 7 years late, I know lol. It seems like I've finally wake up after sleeping on them since 2012. 

Idk these past few days I just feel like fangirling. Idk until when this will last but I'm enjoying it, it makes me happy. Anyways, Izone is finally coming back on 17th February. They've been hiatus for a long time. Sad. But I'm still thankful that they didn't disband,,, but they're disbanding anyway. But at least not before the actual date of their disbandment. Idk how to make the right sentence but, I understand what I'm trying to talk about lol. Idc no one's gonna read anyway.

And as for Lovelyz, I've been stanning them since 2014!! It's been 5 years doe. Group paling lama aku minat. I was such a huge HUGE fan of them around 2015-2016 (especially during ah choo & for you era) then I slowed down during spm sskdskd. My lovelyz acc reached 1k follower but it's now 900+ something LOL it's because I abandoned that acc for years so i don't really care tbh. But it's sad that I haven't talked to my mutuals for ages, but it seems like they rarely tweet just like me hahaha. Still waiting for Lovelyz's comeback though. 

UiTM life ✿

Assalamualaikum and Hi! It has been 3-4 weeks since semester break started. And I suddenly just thought of writing a new entry because I am that boredddd lol I'm running out of shows to watch, even though I have yet to watch dozens of Btob's Beatcom (yeah I'm into btob these days). My last entry was about my matrics life which I didn't even finish writing it and published it just like that haha. 

So now I'm just gonna randomly write or sum up how my life as a degree student at UiTM Puncak Perdana went so far (for the first sem ofc). 

Gonna start with introducing my housemates! 

From left: piqa, ecah, hajar, ayu, jenny, deeja, iffah, sarah

Kolej kat sini style dia macam rumah. Ada 3 bilik. 1 bilik ada dua katil double decker and dua bilik lagi satu katil double decker. Ramai kan duduk serumah 8 orang!! I didn't really like it tbh I'm an introvert so it was hard for me to adapt to these people. However, I did. Housemates aku kelakar ok setiap hari menceriakan hari hariku yang suram gituw cewah. 

Ok so since kitorang semua sama fakulti, untuk sem1 untuk semua course or program semua sama kelas. Boleh daftar kelas sendiri. We choose. Ada housemate yang nak sekali kelas tapi aku elak, aku taknak. I need my own space or idk how to say it but I just don't want. Bayangkan dalam kelas hadap muka sama, rumah muka sama, pastu buat assignment sama sama kat rumah ooo please aku tak suka hahaha. I want to be independent (tiber) so aku daftar la kelas lain dengan mereka hikhik. 

Setiap subject mesti jumpa muka lain lain. So dekat kelas aku takde kawan pun, classmate lain pulak diorang sesama housemate sksksksk. Kawan setakat untuk group assignment gitu ja aku memang maleh nak berkawan dengan orang, kawan dengan housemate je pun dah cukup. Cakap pasal classmateeee, haaaa, groupmate assignment aku ada yang elok ada yang macam kdjfkasdfk rasa nak carut.

Yang elok tu Alhamdulillah, bagi tugas masing2, buat, on time, walaupun buat last minit, takpe, aku pun sama hahaha. Tapi ada pulak group untuk satu subject tu eeee!!! Baru dapat rasa groupmate tahpape sebab kat matriks dulu elok jeee semua. Tapi tak boleh compare la sebab ala kitorang classmate macam family, senang nak cooperate. Masuk uni kita tak kenal masing2, kenal setakat untuk kerja group dah la kan. 

Pastu aku rasa sem 1 ni tak produktif langsung. Sebab jadual tak pack langsung. Sehari 1-2 kelas je. Satu kelas 2 jam. Pastu balik makan, tidur, buat assignment. Study nya tak pun hahaha. Tengok tengok dah final exam huhu. Kalau kat matriks setiap hari kelas 8am sampai 4pm pergh pack betul rasa produktif roxx tidur petang lepas kelas tu nikmat gila. Tapi ni baru sem 1 ha senior kata memang camni, kita tengok next next sem pulak ahaks. 

Dan memandangkan puncak perdana ni betul dekat dengan rumah aku, (30 mins away) aku balik la setiap minggu. Boleh kira kot berapa kali aku tak balik waktu weekend. 2 kali je wei!!! HAHAHA. First time sebab aku join supro (sukan program) 2nd time sebab gap exam. Entahla tak boleh la tak balik sebab rumah dekat en takde program pape kat kolej macam pelik je duduk kat kolej. Balik rumah jimat sikit duit hehe. 

Ha pasal belajar pulak, aku rasa aku suka course aku ni (information system management). Setakat ni belajar pasal internet, computer, library skills, foundation of IM. Entah la mungkin sebab takde calculation kot and aku memang suka bab bab computer/ internet ni lol. Next sem belajar web designing aaa excited. Subjek yang aku tak suka ctu sebab belajar sejarah askdjksjf maleh aku. So untuk sem 1 ni memang menghafal je. Harap2 result tu elok la hahahaha entah la kalau tak elok tu memang aku patut m*ti je huhu ok gurau. 

Sooo to sum up about my first semester, everything was great. I survived!! Azam baru untuk next sem adalah untuk kurang2 kan lah balik rumah tu HAHAHA. Pastu be more confident masa presentation, pastu buat nota awal awal, pastu tolonggg la buat kawan, ko ni dasar pemalas. Pastuuuu, tu je kot. Ok bye!